Even-Keeled
October 14, 2018 Leave a comment
A portrait composed by my coworkers on the whiteboard of my office.
I just thought it’s the perfect moment to plant a flag on something I’ve often wondered–whether my own plan would at some point coincide with reality.
Another Leg of the Journey
September 13, 2018 1 Comment
The Rene Magritte Exhibit at SFMOMA – Interactive
I’ve said how seeing the forest from the trees magnifies the real estate I’ve covered that translates in the abundance given to me. And that’s where I find myself now–proud of where I am and how I got here.
I used to disabuse myself of expectations since they’ve proven to disappoint, however, I’ve learned course corrections and resets are always available when plans go awry, as they most often do.
A year does go by in a blink of an eye, so why not continue to believe in unicorns despite conventional wisdom. There’s nothing to lose but for the possibility of anything and everything, and that would be tragic, a failure of imagination.
The Zen in Food & Design
February 26, 2018 1 Comment
Pictures tell the story best how comforting food, art and architecture are in these even more chaotic days when what’s required is at times not so easy, that is, to embrace, if not rise above, uncertainty.
Mr. Jiu’s balcony over Waverly Place In Chinatown
Mr. Jiu’s bar
Color Factory stop: Mr. Jiu’s back door
Donuts in syrup at Fresca
Sizzling trout with shrimp, onions & tomatoes
Roman-style meal: Braised artichoke in Ideale Ristorante
Dolci: Milliefoglie in Ideale
Sangiovese and chickpea and clams pasta in Ideale
Hunter-style rabbit in a delicate stew
chickpeas and clams
Lighting in Mr. Jiu’s
Lit up for Lunar New Year
Dragon mural
Gem salad with seasonal citrus at Pabu
Happy Oyster Spoon in Pabu
Tuna poke and chips
Pork Char Shui fried rice
Say Hey Kid cocktail at Pabu
The Sumo
San Francisco Bay Area Beer Week: shot and ice cream dish of stout
stout ice cream
Waverly Place
Back to the Future
January 14, 2018 2 Comments
Fabulous Bones
A Kid Again
The Cathedral Building
New buildings going up across the Bay in Oakland, CA.
Three months after starting a new job, it is already quite an odyssey. I am in the other side of the bay, however, I am no stranger to Oakland, where I worked previously before being laid off in 2009. It is pretty much picking up where I left off when I thought I was forging a path forward with a nonprofit whose mission is to end homelessness.
Now I have reinvented myself this time in a contracts management role with an architectural firm. How funny my father can’t even keep up with my career–he tells people I’m now an architect, my journalism aspirations effectively upended.
If the last nine years have taught me anything, it’s openness, forgiveness, kindness and joy. The universe will often respond in kind, if I change the energy inside me away from frustration, anxiety and sorrow.
So here’s to another year, and this time taking things to the next level, playing more offense than defense, and, dare I say, believing in unicorns.
On Golden Pond
September 24, 2017 Leave a comment
I am wrapping up a month-long sabbatical of self-reflection fitted in with two quick nature-filled trips to Tahoe and Point Reyes. At this point, I must first reference a New York Times article, “The Meaningfulness of Lives,” I alluded to six years ago. I want to do the things I used to love so passionately, like tennis, dancing and even writing (well, maybe not all at the same time) that seemed so superfluous when preoccupied with other stuff. I literally felt I couldn’t afford to invest in them because of self-preservation until I realize I couldn’t justify it anymore. My self-worth and a worthwhile life hang in the balance.
I’ve come to know that it’s not a matter of being morally superior or even over-the-moon happy. Rather, it is whether I am thoroughly engaging in something, and it may not always be so pleasant as I spent some of the month healing the wounds of past unfairness and indiscretions and confronting such basic impulses as the inability to relax and unplug. My sojourns to Tahoe, which I hadn’t visited in 17 years, and Point Reyes, where I had never been, put me in touch with some emotions I had ignored and wasn’t aware of–this was the time to push those to the surface and tackle them for as much as I could tolerate it, fully understanding they may crop up again. I am human after all.
As my friend Angela had eloquently chimed in when rain and later hail descended on the lake, “Sometimes rain is best because people scatter, and you can enjoy a moment of solitude in beautiful nature.” Driving in a canopy of firs, cruising on a riverboat from Zephyr Cove to Emerald Bay, hiking street level toward the edge of Lake Tahoe, my mind was empty in a Zen-like state I may have never known existed. It was that deep.
On the eve of a new job and chapter and the cusp of Autumn, my favorite season of the year when things come into fine focus, I am of this mindset: There will be parts of my journey that remind me it’s so much bigger than me; but I have an active role to carve out space and bring meaning to bear on my life that I promised will be one well lived.
A Summer Break
July 31, 2017 Leave a comment
The theme in June continues in July, with creative-writing taking a backseat in favor of business writing for work. But I am where I should be, so I’m giving myself one of those lazy beach moments. And let summer be summer. I’ll be sure to have some books for leisure reading.
The Richness of Weekends
May 29, 2017 2 Comments
If there’s anything these last two years have taught me, it is this return to me and being comfortable with the things I love and a weekly routine inculcated when I was small. It brings me to this notion of how precious weekends are, especially when a birthday lands on them. This long holiday weekend, I’m discovering the music between the notes of an open road and a small-town charm with which I was first acquainted five years ago with a dear friend. While city-dwellers have now altogether swarmed Pescadero in California, at least for this weekend, I am still quite determined to hear those musical strains in the present in a newer context, with a little more bravado.
Photo by Rina Ayuyang in Pescadero, California
Cindy’s Country Store
Open Road on Highway 1
A World of Imagination
March 25, 2017 Leave a comment
I wonder sometimes if this is all to life, whether there’s more. And I realize there is, but there isn’t a “there, there” because that is even transformed into something else, typically unexpected.
Whatever the case may be, that is my mindset when I finally visited the new SFMOMA this month. There always exist opportunities that present themselves if I keep turning the corner.
After a particularly frustrating work week, I made a beeline for the SFMOMA one Friday, which had opened after a two-year remodel. Museums can be confining, as I often found this one to be. Its expansion, however, does offer more breathing space. Minutes from closing time, I explored the free areas at lobby-level.
In the outset, Richard Serra’s “Sequence” at the rear looks like some big coil of teak Indonesian salad bowls that landed in its show space. However, as I navigated through them, they both are their own kind of maze and enigma of sorts. It felt like a warren of canyons that I imagine coming upon in the Grand Canyon or the lost city of Petra in the deserts of Jordan, moving deliberately between narrow walls and incisions and anticipating what might be around the bend.
It was oddly liberating that while my job is becoming predictable, life is far from it. There’s no way of knowing, reminding me once again the level of uncertainly we all live. I had to get out of my head, and, like some pieces of art, “Sequence” released what was pent up: the urge to get away.
In my Absence
November 27, 2016 Leave a comment
Sign of the Times: Chapel of the Chimes
Gosh, I look back at some of my blog posts up to date, and I realize I miss writing, like an old boyfriend or friend (none of which is mutually exclusive). As I see how other people’s lives unfold, I am aware I am living my own these last ten months. Much has happened in 2016, and while I’m inclined to bookend chapters in my life, it often plays out without a convenient break. Refusing to fit neatly in a tidy box, it is a messy proposition and overflows sometimes rather rapidly.
Having said that, I can’t promise fidelity to regular monthly entries, although I will try. Writing is a solitary, difficult endeavor when forced. It can’t often express everything inside me, although I love it so.
Simple Pleasures
January 31, 2016 Leave a comment
Arrabiata pizza with farm fresh egg at my local Italian joint Gialina.
January has proven to be a gentle month after the bluster of December, and simplicity is the key. I am grateful for what I have and even not have: no drama on the personal or professional front. I don’t have to come at life like an ambitious crime-fighter on a TV procedural. Sometimes it’s just taking myself out to dinner or Happy Hour and appreciating what’s in front of me, whether it’s an Arrabiata pizza topped with a farm-fresh egg and later a rare dessert at my neighborhood joint Gialina or grilled calamari at Woodhouse Fish Company after a doctor’s appointment. Whatever the case may be, this weekend before a new month is about doing absolutely nothing, no deadlines to meet or anyone to accommodate, but me.
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